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TALKTIME #13: MY NEED FOR ASEXUAL CHARACTERS
*Warning: I am angry, so the following is properly not going to to be coherent and there will be swearing, so if that is not okay with you, the exit is at the top of the page. For those of you who are okay with this, thank you for staying and listening to me. I appreciate it.*
Storytime. So yesterday I was minding my own business, eating Denny's in my room and watching tv because I am all for procrastinating school work. I had just gotten my new laptop, so I was in a pretty good mood. Then all of a sudden out of nowhere, bam, I get a notification from Facebook Messenger. I look at it and it is from this guy. We're going to call him Dumbo for this story's sake. Anyway, Dumbo says he's bored and wants to talk. I say okay because Dumbo seems like a nice guy who I've had classes with. Well we get to talking and he seems pretty nice. He's flirting with me and I feel all happy inside. A guy has only once ever flirted with me, and nothing to this caliber. I have never had a boyfriend so this is all new to me.
Anyway, things were pretty good. And then out of fucking nowhere. He asks me if I want to come over to his room and have sex with him.
For those of you who don't know, I am asexual. I do not feel physical attraction and I don't ever want to have sex. I am sure of it and it is a decision I stand by. Well I told this guy and he would not hear it. Dumbo didn't believe people could be asexual, and that because I'm a virgin I can't know that I'm asexual and that he doesn't believe I can't feel physical attraction. He kept asking me to have sex with him and I kept telling him no and to do his fucking research on what it means to be asexual. Dumbo had the fucking nerve to tell me and I quote "be a good little girl and have sex with me. I'll show how how to suck this dick and how to feel good". I WAS FUCKING ANGRY. I HAD HAD IT! I WAS DONE. FUCK THIS BASTARD FOR SAYING THAT WHAT I FEEL IS NOT REAL.
Anyway, let me get to the point of this story. This guy at the really smart college I go to didn't know and understand asexuality, and that is not okay. Clearly there is not enough representation out there in the world. And I'm not talking just about books. There needs to be asexual characters in tv shows and movies and other mainstream things people watch. I am so tired of people not knowing what asexualilty is and not thinking it is a legitimate orientation. Do you know how many asexual characters I have read about in books? A BIG FAT ZERO! Do you know how many asexual characters I have seen on tv/movies? Maybe three.
Not only do we need more asexual characters for the sake of educating the general public, but to help asexuals like me. Coming to terms with my asexuality was such a hard thing for me to go through. I didn't understand why I didn't feel like everyone else, and people weren't very accepting. They kept telling me it was just a phase and eventually I would find a boy that I like that. Hearing that stuff did not help the inner turmoil in me.
I guess what I'm trying to say is, I just want more asexual characters. People are always talking about how there needs to be diversity. People are always talking about how there needs to be more people of color, LGBT, etc. and I completely agree. I want there to be more of those characters a lot too. But I really really really want there to be more asexuals. It almost feels like we don't exist. With the other groups, at least it is common knowledge they exist. With asexuals, we're basically like dragons.
Thank you all so much for sticking this far. What are your thoughts on the topic. I'd love to hear what you all have to say.